Weight: 158.5

Weight: 159

I know I haven't posted and i've been bad.  But at least I am out of the 60s.  It took me forever just to weigh myself, i've been so busy with finals.  I'm going to try and post more often to keep myself on the right path. oh And i met someone else... check it out... and he's absolutely perfect for me in every way. its absolutely incredible.  and hes crazy about me! (P.S.  not me in those photos)  another reason why i have been too busy to post!!

Weight: 160

Weight: 161

i'm getting out of the 160s this week.  before the 12th.  Watch me.

Weight: 162

Today I ate:
breakfast:  cereal
Lunch:  Salad
Snack:  half a bagel with margarine
Dinner:  vegetables and 6 fake chicken nuggets with honey
Fruits:  some of a mango, an apple, and a banana

weight: 162.5

weight not nearly as bad as i thought.  today I ate:

breakfast:  cereal
Lunch:  salad
Snack:  half bagel and margarine
Dinner:  personal pan pizza ...mmmm
dessert:  piece of chocolate that I wasn't supposed to have...damnit mom

ummm....next time....try not to do the chocolate and try to go for a healthier dinner lol

i ate dinner late cuz i was starving after work

today I ate:
breakfast:  2 ww waffles and margarine
lunch:  salad
snack:  half bagel and margarine + strawberries
Dinner:  6 fake chicken nuggets with honey.
also snacked on a slice of orange cheese and a few pretzels and a chocolate almond......and an apple


I didn't do so well i think i lack motivation.  I'm going to weigh in tomorrow.  please don't judge me i might be back where i started.  but i think posting my weight is the only thing that will keep me motivated to keep losing weight.

I think what I need to succeed is a diet that I can do and can look forward to.  something i can do for the rest of my life.  and i've been thin before and i know what i ate.  so this is what its gunna be:

breakfast:  any kind of healthy cereal and almond milk
Lunch:  salad with any kind of dressing I want
Snack:  one serving of something whole wheat, with lightly spread margarine
Dunner:  anything, as long as it is 1 serving

as many fruits and vegetables as I would like.  Okay to add some fat with vegetables (helps with digestion).  Drink lots of fluids, water, tea, fiber, etc.  move as much as I want.

It sounds like i'm giving in, but yo yo dieting doesn't work.  You eat nothing one day and too much the next.  it screws up your metabolism and makes you gain whenever you eat anything.  So I need to eat often, take in fewer calories than I need, but take in enough to control my hunger.  Also I need to be satisfied enough and not feel like i'm being deprived.  Thats why i can have whatever I want for dinner.  So this diet can work wherever I go.  plus, where can you eat that doesn't offer a salad??  so i think this is a good diet for me.  No more excuses.  Alcohol is out, and I've binged for long enough.  One day I won't miss it anymore.

Yesterday I turned on the shower and threw up a little. Mom discovered me doing it and of course she freaked out.  Its like shes been waiting for me to throw up and I finally did and of course she was there listening in.  Whatever... It didn't really work anyway.  I tried the salt water tactic.  Its just gross.  New Diet plan:

breakfast:  all bran cereal
Lunch:  salad
Snack:  whole wheat bagel half or other serving of whole wheat bread
Dinner:  little dinner

Eat a lot of fruits and vegetables.

Drinking is evil.  I want to be the thin girl in her flowy dress in her pretty garden...